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haiz.. i saw 1 of my fren blog.... i saw she write in her blog that the times that she go out with her frens without me whereas we used to go out together, i feel a sense of sadness.. cos we used to be so close and have a lot of fun.... i'm so sad... and our common fren used to ask me go out after school to eat, etc, but now she didn't ask me.. haiz.. time really change.. it changes so fast.. used to do a lot of things, now cannot... used to treasure something, now it had gone.. used to chat together, now talk lesser... sorry, baby and darling.. i feel happy with you guys.. but you also know that i miss those times with them where nothing happen.. all so peaceful... SO good... haiz.. why we can't be frens??? why must i be your gf??? dun you miss the times that our frens and us often go out together, have fun together.. stay as frens isn't so good..? we are once frens, and now you saw me, you avoid me...? i used to tok lots of stuff to you and sms plus chat.. but now, i can't tok to you cos scare that the % that you like me will increase... why you must like me when we used to have some common memories with other frens and have fun... why you can't give up? why? why? why?!! i'm feel so troubled, so stress. i'm not blaming you guys... relationship can't be forced.. i know that.. i try it before... i really feel like crying.. now, even like some secrets about me, i can't tell you guys.. haiz.. can only tell my baby and darling... dear winy and catherine,please, let's treasure the times that we have, ok?? so dun do things that make us regret.. i know that we may have contact with each other after we graduate.. but who knows the future.. cherish this... i think this feelings, winy, you should understand more than me.. i'm trying to say all my thoughts.. if it hurts you, sorry... i feel so troubled... so lazy to tok all this stuffs.. haiz.. forget it.. if you really think that there is a need to avoid me, so be it.. wanna dun care le... hope so... wanna keep this thoughts privately... but i think this is the way to express my feelings... if time can go forward and backward, i hope i can go back primary school, so dun have any troubles, i wish i graduate le from sec sch... i think is good from us.. i can stay away from stress le.... haiz.. dun wanna tok this le...

ok, erm, yesterday, i go out with winy to buy things and today, i go her house to transfer songs to her.. during the process, so funny.. hahas.. keep a secret between us... ok? hahas

do you really know me? i wonder that...